Friday, December 11, 2009
Whooott :DD
That gives me a good reason to unblog my blog.
Muahhaahh!!
Anyway, I doubt anyone is reading this :P
This holiday is definitely something to remember, even before I go to Japan.
It has taught me alot about family, friendship, annoying people (aka DROOL), relationships etc.
I just feel like this whole weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Before this, I would be dreaming and worrying about the same thing night over night.
But not anymore.
And I thank you for that (:
Now, imma leave for Japan in peace,
cry there for a few nights,
then start camwhoring like crazy,
and last but not least,
come home and laugh laugh laugh.
MUHAHAAH!!
Loovess (:
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Sometimes songs can speak so much. Just the harmony, the lyrics, the way its sung. You can express so much, everything thats hidden inside, with just a song.
Lies lies lies. Its true that one lie leads to another. And another, and another. Eventually the lies pile up and there's no way to get out. Sometimes you lie to protect someone, or maybe just protect yourself. The truth hurts most of the time. And us, just mere humans, deadly afraid of being hurt, lies to run away from the pain and sorrow. But sooner or later, we'd have to face the truth and explain our lies. Yupe, the explaining part sucks the most.
Sometimes when you lie too much, it makes it hard for anyone to trust you ever again. You come to a point where you realize that all the lying in the past does not pay off when this one person, whom you want so badly to trust you, doesn't. So yeah, it sucks being the kid who shouted 'WOLF' too many times.
But what if this works two ways? What if, you're being lied to too? Its so funny that we both say we trust each other no matter what, but yet we still doubt each others' words. We say we'd never get mad at each other, and yet we still do. Words are so easily manipulated. People no longer say things they mean, they just say it to please others.
So, how can I trust you when your actions speak otherwise?
How do you be with someone that you feel guilty around? How do you like someone that tells you you're living off the guilt for all the things you've done wrong? Shouldn't he be saying; It's alright. It's not your fault. But then again, he'd be lying, no? But I don't get it. You just like rubbing it into my face that I screwed up right? Well, thanks for your support. I feel much better after talking to you about my freaking screw ups.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Anyway, I think it soo tiring to update about my life and outings *blablabla* cause you have to post up pictures, write captions, tell the whole story etc. I'm way too lazy to do that anymore. So I guess, whenever I update, it'd be about some crap problem that I'm having in my teenage life. Hahaha!
And this is just a false alarm. I don't have a teenage problem now. I'm just updating for the crap of it. Muahah !!
Aight, bye (:
Friday, September 25, 2009
Anyway, remember the last msg you sent to me? Well, I only got half of what you wanted to say. Bottom line is, the text didn't fully get through. It got cut half way so I only got to read the first part. And it didn't sound like a good way to end anything. Soo, I just really want to know what the content of the other half was.
And I'm sorry for everything I've done. Yess, its stupid of me for always apologizing without doing anything about it, but it's probably the only thing I'm capable of doing. I'm sorry.
Saturday, September 19, 2009
`You're A Jerk :D
Yupe, I actually thought I was guilty for making you suffer.
And I take back everything I've said to you.
But thanks for the lesson though.
I'd make sure not to trust anyone like your species again (:
Peace, Jerk :D
Sunday, September 13, 2009
I still remember how horrible it felt when this happened the last time. Tears wouldn't stop streaming down my face. I'm sure the pain was so unbearable that I won't be able to feel anything even if you stabbed a knife into my heart. The torturing silence that literally killed me. And when you were finally talking to me again, its as if I've been given a second chance to live. And now, it's all happening again. Just that this time is different. The feeling, is different.
Sometimes I wonder to myself if everything you were telling me if real. People keep telling me not to trust you. But, its just that when you say it, it sounds soo real. It sounds like you mean it, like you mean everything you say. I really want to trust what you're telling me is true. But sometimes, what you do shows me otherwise. Nowadays, I just feel like I don't know you anymore. Like you're a total stranger to me. Last time, I use to think I know you best. Like I knew how you felt, or what you like. But now, everything is blur. The image I have of you in my mind doesn't seem to fit who you are now. Did what happen change who you are now? I'm soo sorry to have caused you all this pain. Its my fault. Everything is my fault. I'm guilty of all charges. And guilty of everything.
I just wish to fall asleep and wake up, hoping that I've forgotten everything. If I had a choice, I'd run away now. Run away to a place so far that you'll never be able to find me. Just so that you can carry on without me. And don't worry, you won't miss me when I'm gone.
Without me, you'd be free.
P/S : Liking a person is not judge by how much to you talk to each other. Its about the feelings you get even when you say hi.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Seriously. There were fighting scenes from the beginning till the end, literally.
And I LOVE IT !!
OhmyGawd. This movie is totally a 9.999/10 (Cause the ending part was abit potong)
I can watch this a million times again, just like Transformers :D
Hmm. Other than that? Highlight of the weekend;
Saturday : Installation BBQ Night
Sunday : G.I.Joe , Steamboat
Soo lazy to blog. Haih.
Byee.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Thanks :D
And I forgotten how was it like to be a Form3.
After talking to them, it just reminds me of how much I miss Form3.
Not to mention 3CEMPAKA !!
Arghh. I wish I could go back.
Attention to Form3's : Enjoy your PMR year. When you reach Form4, thats when it strikes you how fast you're growing and how your life is gonna and just like that.
Monday, August 17, 2009
It just gets worse eveyday.
The only thing I ask of you is to hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away.
Remember this song?
Or have you really forgotten everything already?
Friday, August 14, 2009
Tagged once more by Lamin` Melvin
USING ONLY ONE WORD!
It's not as easy as you might think!
Copy and change the answers to suit you and pass it on.
It's really hard to only use one word answers.
Be sure to tag the person you received it from.
1. Where is your cell phone?
Don't know.
2. Your significant other?
Food :D
3. Your hair?
Washed. LOL
4. Your favourite thing?
Food :)
5.Your dream last night?
Dark.
6. Your favourite drink?
Ribena?
7. Your dream/goal?
Food.
8. What room you are in?
Hall.
9. Your hobby?
Ber-Lame
10. Your fear?
You.
11. Where do you want to be in 6 years?
Home.
12. Where were you last night?
Restaurant.
13. Muffins?
Fluffy.
14. Wishlist item?
Music.
15. Where you grew up?
Soil.
16. Last thing you did?
Tagged.
17. What are you wearing?
Guess.
18. Your TV?
Flat :D
19. Your pets?
Bleh.
20. Friends?
Life.
21. Your life?
Family.
22. Your mood?
Frustrated.
23. Missing someone?
Maybe.
24. Car?
Drift !
25. Something you're not wearing?
Boxers.
26. Your favorite store?
Floral.
27. Your favorite color?
Green.
28. When was the last time you laughed?
Now.
29. Last time you cried?
Today.
30. Who will resend this?
MELVIN !!
31. One place that I go to over and over?
Kitchen.
32. One person who emails me regularly?
Facebook.
33. Favorite place to eat?
Beach.
I tag; YOU !
Can't believe I'm doing another tag. Hahaha !!
It's proven.
I'm NICE :D
Thursday, August 13, 2009
`Breaking Apart.
This week is probably the worse week ever. Day by day, everything seems to get harder. Everything was fine before this. But why did you mess with the balance?
I just feel like an idiot now. I feel soo stupid. Like I'm not capable of achieving anything at all. I'm flunking class ever since July. Not concentrating at all, and not finishing my homework. Today we had Bio and Moral test. And I had to cheat in both tests just to make sure I don't fail. People expect much more from me. I expected more from myself. I feel like I don't have the energy to do anything anymore. I can't understand anything that everyone is filling into my head. Bio, Physics, +Maths, History ... even Mod Maths. Maybe I'm not even trying hard enough to understand. My study life is just going downhill.
And to add salt to the wound, I don't know what's happening to our friendship. Usually you'd say hi to me, ask me questions, talk to me `bout whatever crap possible. But today, you've not even acknowledge my existence. Not even a slight smile when our eyes meet. I never asked for this to happen. Why can't we just talk like we do last time? What happened to the endless texts we used to send each other just to talk about crap? Where's the guy that'll talk to me when I'm facing troubles like this? Where's the guy that'll ask me about +Maths just so that I can show off my skills? I miss my best friend.
I just want everything to go back to as they were before. I want to laugh again with my heart around you. Why won't you give me a chance?
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
The Familiar Sorrow.
I can remember so vividly the familiar chanting from the player. The bouquet of white roses lined up beside the table. The framed up picture in the centre right in front of the coffin. And of course, the body in the coffin itself.While taking small steps towards the coffin, tears already filled up my eyes.I was hesitating.Wondering if I should look into the coffin. Wondering if it'd bring back the painful feelings that filled the house the day he left. And yes, it did. It was like dejavu all over again. Instead, this time, reality struck harder.
I knew I should've been strong. And I regretted not doing so.I regretted making a fool out of myself, letting my emotions conquer me, and thus destroying the walls that Pn.Teh built around herself to stay strong. But I just can't help it. I should know that I've cried enough when he actually left, but to relive the scene once more? It felt as if he left me again. Once was enough.
I do miss him soo dearly. Remembering the times he used to fetch me around, buy me food while I spent my school holidays with him and my grandmother. I practically grew up believing that my grandma and him were my 2nd parents. I knew I wasn't very fond of him when I was younger. But as I grew older, I noticed how much he loved me,even if I might have made him sad countless times. I regret not being the best grandchild that I could've been. I regret not telling you I Love You every single day. There's so many things that I wish to talk to you about. Soo many things that I want to apologize for. I didn't even get to tell you how much I relly love you before you left.
I hope you still hear me now. Screaming at the top of my lungs, telling you how much I really love you, grandpa.
Monday, August 10, 2009
Why Am I Doing This?
Cause I'm being very nice. Hahaha.
Tagged by Melvin Cheah !
1. Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
Attention to my future boyfriend/husband; My forehead (:
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Hungry !! Thank God humans created muffins :D
3. Who was the last person people you took photo with?
My two lame kaki-lang : Swen and Des.
4. Would you consider yourself spoilt?
Definitely not. I'm brand new. LOL
5. Will you ever donate blood?
To save mankind? Why not.
6. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
Plenty. Hey, after all, I'm 50 man and 50 woman right? I accept that fact !!
7. Do you want someone to be dead?
The fella that tagged me. Hahahah !! Just kidding ;p
8. What does your last message say?
This is so random. Texting or pm? Urm. "Shut up, you bimbo"? Lol
9. What are you thinking right now?
"Why whyy whyy am I doing this tag? You should be happy, Melvin. Hahaha!"
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
Chace Crawford. Hahah !
11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
1am? Was watching "I'm a celebrity, get me outta here." Damn funny. LOL
12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Another totally random question. Is this a stalker? Hahaha. Urm, Giordano.
13. Is someone in your mind right now?
My MOM !! She's gonna come back anytime soon. And I'm illegally onlining. Hahaha
14. Who was the last person who text you?
Chang Meng Kit. Yess, I still hate you. Lol
10 "lucky" people do this quiz.
1. Melvin, how dare you tag me? Lol
2. Manda
3. Des
4. Swen
5. Daey
6. Xing
7. Andrew
8. My sis, Mei (: Though I know she wont do it.
9. Shiat Hui
10. Huey
15. Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
Hahaha. This is P/C. Lol
16. Is number 3 a male or female?
I sometimes wonder myself. Hahaha
17. If number 7 and number 1 get together will it be good?
Urm. Aren't they already together? LOL
18. What is number 1 studying?
Hahaha. Like he said; Chapter 4. His favourite.
19. Is number 4 single?
Taken by me. Back off, people. Hahaa
20. Say something about number 6.
L-A-M-E dude that sits beside me :D
21. What you think of number 3 and number 6 being together?
HAHAHAHAHAH !! Speechless. LOL
22. Describe number 9.
Hyperactive ;D
23. Do you like number 8?
Lovee her :)
DONE :D
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Special message to ma` boys
I've heard that there are some problems you guys are facing. Somethings that might shake your friendship. You might not always see eye to eye but isn't that part of what makes you stronger as one? Although you have your own individual opinions about everything but you gotta learn to think as a team. Make decisions that benefits each other and not just yourself. You're not aiming for stardom as an individual, you're aiming for success as ONE. Even if you cant reach a decision as a team, do not let those obstacles ruin your friendship. Friends are more important than your career. Just trust each other for trust is all you need to succeed. Sometimes you might feel like anything and everything that you have done might not be enough to bring joy to others. But the truth is, your effort shows how much you care for us and how much you want to make us happy. It does not always have to be perfect. Sometimes the tiny flaws you have are the ones that build you up to be stars. You may have lost the battle, but you can still win the war. So stand up, rise from the ashes and give it another shot. A loser is not determined by matches you've lost, but by the matches that kept you on the ground.
Even if the whole world doubt you, I'd still be here.
Standing strong, ready to offer my hands whenever you need help.
Your faithful friend :D
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Officially The Head PR :D
I'm publicity-ing like CRAZY !!
Hahaha. Anyway, more pictures on Facebook (:
P/S: I have a special Hot Attics album on Facebook okay. LOL
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Saturday, June 27, 2009
All I Can Say Is ... Thank You (:
When would I stop saying that. Hahaha :D
Ssooo, I knew you guys were planning something,
but I didn't know it'd be this huge !!
I mean, crashing my house ?? LOL.
My 'secret lair'.
I just, don't know what to say.
Speechless ...
Saturday, June 20, 2009
JanYi loves her Daddy (:
Tuition (:
Look at the amount of sweets we ate. Lol !!
Thursday , 18.06.2009
I was looking through my old stuff and I found this.
I wrote it during last year's end term exam.
Hahaha !
My korean craze :D
Friday , 19.06.2009
This is like a Father's Weekend Celebration.
Since my mom is in Ipoh, I'm left with my dad and sis only.
Sooo, we bond (:
Fetched my aunt to KL Central. Soo, we went to Bangsar for dinner.
And I found a restaurant that is named after Shiva. Or sort of ..
And its black in colour too. Lol.
Went to Delicious to have dinner in Bangsar Village II.
The tiramisuu was nice (:
But abit dry though.
Monday, June 15, 2009
The Cutest Thing Always Comes In Small Packets.
Obviously, all the fathers were shirtless with their very round and firm tummy showing off, symbolizing prosperity.
LOL !!
And I was playing with my cousin whom they say look exactly like me when I was young.
They keep taking my baby picture saying that its her in it. Hahaha !
Well, why dont you be the judge.
I don't think we look very alike. How do you know if someone looks alike?
Friday, June 12, 2009
I just finished watching Forensic Heroes 2's last episode.
And it was soo touching, the way he proposed to her.
Ahh. I'm in love. With TVB actors. LOL !!
I've got my favourites already :D
But I'm not gonna rate them. Just in general.
I'm Permanent.
Wednesday , 10.06.2009
Went for steamboat at Tasty Pot with the kiddos'.
And never listen to Swen giving you directions,
its all topsy-turvy. Lol!
I didn't make him pose for this. LOL.
I always get shots of him holding a tissue to his nose. (refer to the HSM3 post)
And that's the crazy people that lovess the camera. Buncha' posers !
Forgot to take a picture of Sheung Jien. Who was doing a good job serving us tea. Hahhaaa !!
You know why we suddenly decide to go tennis.
It was because on Tuesday, I told Daey I was a member in Tropicana, then he got sooo excited and called us all to play tennis.
Can you believe it, Daey actually planned an outing. Counted as an outing la. LOL !
Xing, Des and I took a break from wacking tennis balls to eat ice-cream when we passed by the golf course and we thought it was a great background for pictures.
Jan : Eh, lets take a picture la.
Xing : (stops walking) Okay, take la.
And there it is, his pose.
Then he changed his pose and said, "Okay, take another one."
But he's kill me if I posted that picture. So, I didn't (:
Hahaaha !! Weird picture. But wtv.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
What Happens When You Lose Your Heart's Desire ?
Well, its on again (:
And Lui Jan Yi is updated this time.
Omolah !! Seriously cant wait for New Moon to finally make its way to the theatres.
Kakilangss.
Notice I'm been updating more since I got my new phone?
LOL !!
Today I had lunch with the tuition gang :
She seriously sucha camm fella. Daey and I went through her gallery and there were like 60 pictures of her wearing the same shirt with the same background. LOL !
Pretty Boy : Jon Chooi aka JC
Jon is probably the only one that does his work in tuition. Hahahah !!
I'm not kidding bout his title. I switched my phone to night mode just for him. Hahahah !!
Monday, June 1, 2009
Truckloads of Pictures (:
Today, imma' blog about something that has alot of picture.
And I was talking about Xing's house being awesome, not him. LOL !
Then, on the way back, we saw WaiPhun. With his "durian". That only meant one thing,
More Pictures !! LOL
After the SO and Dirt gang assembled, we went to Xing's favourite place in the world,
Giant !
It was sooo funny picking out chicken wings with Des and Jia.
The worst was Jia's perception on whats cheap and whats not. LOL !
After that, we went back to Xing's and started working in the kitchen.
The the beautiful chicken wings (:
And took pictures (:
Guess what's the colour code. And guess who's breaking it?
LOL !
And that's Jia's priceless face when he found out he gotta start the fire.
And fanning. And fanning.
And finally the fire started. When the night fell !!
And check him out, enjoying the fire with a kebab in his hands. Hahahah !!
After that, everyone started arriving.
Manda (:
Daey (:
Tze (:
And once again, presenting the JMD+D (:
And what did we do there?
Compete in " who's sepet eyes is bigger? "
Cam whore with Xing's huge mirror.
I think Xing wants this picture.
He was posing specially for it. LOL !
We had to take this picture like a million times cause we were using the timer.
It was hilarious :D
See the two ghost-like figures on the left and top.
Well, one of them is Mag and the other is Swen.
I was barbeque-ing while sitting next to Daey, and then he turned to me and said; "This is soo fun." with his darlie smile.
And yeah, it was fun (:
Fun sounds like a simple world, but it holds alot of meaning, don't you think?
P/S : I was having such a hard time loading the pictures,
cause - to the bloggers - you know how horrible blogger is with the picture arrangement and all. I felt like my eyes were dying.
Sooo, appreciate my beautiful post, and LEAVE SOMETHING AT THE CBOX. Nice treat huh?