Being Paranoid Isn't Fun .

Isit just me,
or are you acting cold with me around you?

Somehow, I feel like I've done something wrong,
which made you feel like you should be mean to me.

But I just can't figure out what isit.

The way you speak the past few days,
seems different.

Like there's acid in your voice.
And coldness in your eyes.

It kills me to wonder what have I done.

I hope I'm just being paranoid.
But note this;
its definitely,
NOT fun !!


Music of the Day : Us Against The World by Westlife

Happy CNY, cash (;

This year's CNY probably is the best one yet.

What have I been missing last year ?!

Who knew open houses could be soo much fun ?
Okay, only I didn't. Hahah !!

Anyway, this is the first year,
that I actually gambled.

Omgee !! I'm sorry, God.
I know its a sin.
But, temptation !!

So yeah,
there were wins ..
and losts. Alot of them.

But I won 'em all back today.

Thanks to Neil, or was it Eddie?
Who suggested to play that " Ngau " game where you throw in your money and the winner gets it all.

My money was draning fast when we played BlackJack.
And that was it, I thought my luck could only go that far.
Loosing.

Then, somehow,
dunno how.

My luck just twisted upside down and I just won that " Ngau " game.

But the win wasn't that big.
It just looks big cause there were alot alot of Rm1 note.

But, I do not complain when I get money (;

Anyway, Neil, I love your house.
I know I've said it a million times before,
but,
I LOVE YOUR HOUSE !!

And imma marry you just to live in your house.
Hahahah !!!


Music of the Day : Kidnap My Heart by The Click Five

I'm Sorry, Mr. Thumb

Sometimes people don't appreciate what they've got.
They often take those lil' things for granted.

I'm sorry, Mr. Left thumb,
For hurting you.

This year, I spent my CNY playing Fate Stay Night on PS2.
It was AWESOME!!
Reminded me why I was so crazily in love with King of Fighters last time.

So, I was engrosed in winning,
performing all my cool tricks.

And then,
Before I knew it,
My left thumb started blister-ing. Lol!

I would say I dislocated my skin.
Lol!
Then my skin started forming some liquid in it.

So, I took a pin, and
POKE!!!

And the liquid went
DUSH!!!

Flowed out like the ocean during the high tide.

Okay, overdoing it.

Anyway, my finder does hurt badly now.

But !
For Fate Stay Night.
It was worth it (;

Do You Believe In Miracles? I Do.

I somehow feel like my life is being controlled by this huge hour glass.
The sand just keeps falling without fail,
while I watch helplessly, a part of me slipping away before my eyes.

Time is awfully precious.

Whether it is 6 days, 6 hours or a mere 6 minutes.
Because in that 6 minutes, there's a chance that something magical might happen.

Therefore, I'm waiting here,
silently,
For a miracle to take place.



Music of the Day ; Tongue Tied by Faber Drive

I somehow feel like my life is being controlled by this huge hour glass.
The sand just keeps falling without fail,
while I watch helplessly, a part of me slipping away before my eyes.

Time is awfully precious.

Whether it is 6 days, 6 hours or a mere 6 minutes.
Because in that 6 minutes, there's a chance that something magical might happen.

Therefore, I'm waiting here,
silently,
For a miracle to take place.



Music of the Day ; Tongue Tied by Faber Drive

Just When I Needed You Most .

Yesterday,
You asked me to make a very important decision for you.

How was I suppose to say yes when it meant that you'd leave forever?

Though saying yes was the best choice for you, but
I just can't help myself to do it.

You can say that I was being selfish because I was.
I don't want to look back and not see you anymore.

And that's why I'm telling you now,
Whatever your answer is,
I'd respect it.

But that doesn't mean,
I'd be happy with it.

I'm sorry.


Music of the Day ; Second Chance by Faber Drive

The Lameness Is Spreading Fast .

I just realised the fella sitting beside me a.k.a. Leong Xing Yao,
is really very lame.

For example;
Me : Lame is my middle name. Keekekke !!
Xing : Really ? Well, lame is my first name.

Hahah !! Don't you think he's soo lame? Ish.
Lol !


Anyway, I did something really wrong today.
I totally blew my surprise plan for Vino.

It'd be like a 0.001% that Vino visits my blog, so I guess blogging bout it is safe.

I actually wanted to gather up money from Vino's friends to buy him something nice.
So, I asked people to contribute.

And it is proven that Vino is a really awesome man,
cause once I mentioned his name, without consideration,
they'll just agree. So sweet ~

Okay, here comes the horrible part.

I was actually walking behind Vino to the library.
Then we saw Shiva and Jien.

I totally forgotten bout Vino's presence there and blurp out;
" Hey, Sheung Jien. I'm gathering money to buy Vino something. "

RIGHT BEHIND HIM !!!

And he sooo heard it. Cause I was like, " OOHHHhhh !! ".
And he stared at me, with his shocked face.
And Shiva stared at me, with his, " You're soo dumb la. " face. (predicted)

Then, there was this akward silence.
And then he was smart enough to leave.
Hahah !! So careless right ?!?!

So there goes my surprise.
But there's still abit of surprise,
cause he doesn't know what we're buying.

And no ... I'm not bursting the bubble here. Muahahah !!

Just in case, he soo decides to check my blog. Lol !


So sorry Vino !! For spoiling your surprise !!
I's do better next year (;

One Mistake Can Change The World.

Sometimes I feel like you guys completely forgotten about me.

Forgotten to include me in your gang,
now that we're in different classes.

Maybe you might forget bout me one day,
but not now.

I just heard something from Manda that made me really touched.
Though it was just a mistake,
but it still makes me feel wanted.

Omgee ! I tearing up thinking about this.

Manda : Today, Des didn't come to school.
Me : Ya, i know.
Manda : So I sat beside Mag. Then Steven turned back and accidently called Mag, Jan.

That one mistake changed the way I looked at things.

Knowing that you guys still feel my existence, makes me feel ... speechless.

Thanks Steven. Just for remembering me.

" Wing Chun, Ip Man "

Currently in love with, IP MAN !!

Also known as;
1) I-P Man by my dad
2) I-P boy by my aunt

Music of the Day : Call Me by Taegoon

The Blame Is On Me.

The distance between us didn't hit me that hard until I saw what it did to us today.

Thinking that time could cure this was my bigest mistake.

I do not blame you, for moving on.
I blame me, for not following close enough.

The memories of the past only brings pain to the future.

But forgetting the past would mean that I have nothing left.

That means my only option is to bring those memories with me...
Along with the pain.

The Bar Of Soap.

The bitterness of reality only hits you when the sun sets,
and when the moonlight rise up to shine its light down onto us.


" So near, yet so far. "


What are the hidden meanings behind does words?
I finally found out.


You once said you hope for everything to be the same without changing,
and yet, you changed.

I feel like everything is different.
A new year,
new friends,
& a new you.

Its as if the world is still spining,
but without me in it.

How do you look for the source of this sorrow,
without knowing where to start ?

And here I stand,
alone.

Where are you when I need you most?



Music of the Day : First Impression On You by Kyuhyun