Appreciating The Moments (:

Today, we celebrated Calvin's Sweet 16 (;

It was all going well,

probably our first successful surprise party,

then my MOM had to tell Calvin about it.

Or sorta` hint it out to him.

Ish. But its okay, he's touched.

I guess.

Sooo, I realise, I have really hillarious friends.

Like tickled pink.

The whole time, while we were at the park,

they were acting like a bunch of KIDS !

Lemme finish my sentence ..

Just the way I like my friends to be (:

Thats Vino, Xing and Jia.

Neil and Kedric, kept stealing Andrea's slippers and hanging it everywhere possible.

And here, my family potrait (;
I have great friends, right?

There's a difference in these two pictures.

Not by the position or pose,
but by the absence or presence of people.

Yupe, the fella holding the camera changed.

Last but not least,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CALVIN YAP JUN HONG !!

My kawan baik (;

This guy has changed soo much since Form1.
Changed for the better.

Less cocky, and more friendly !

Curiosity Killed The Cat.

That idiom suddenly came to me.

So, yeah.

Exams are soo close that I can feel its evil coldness on my skin.

And yet, I'm still here, blogging about it.

Sometimes,

wait. scratch that.

Always, I wonder,

what the heck am I doing?

Haih.

Anyway, I just had Subway today.

Delicious shouldn't be enough to express how tasty it is.

Too bad its not in Swen's list.
Can't make her jealous this time.

I wanted to blog about something.
But then I totally forgotten.

Well, sms.
As Calvin would say it.

Went for badminton with the gang again this week.

But this time, Kedric went too.

New member, like me (:

And I can officially announce that my skills have improved.
But of course, its nothing compared to JunYew, FookLee, Calvin and definitely not David.

It is good, compared to Des.

Hahahahah !!

And Vino came too !!

The blackie (:

He was playing while msging Shaina.

Alamak !!

But surprisingly, he managed to save every shot by multitasking.

Maybe because, most of the time he's running around the court like a mad dog.

Reason:Because I'm not.

Didn't manage to play with Kedric though.

But I guess he is too pro for me, that's why.

LOL !

Reduce, Reuse & Recycle, ma' friends.

Going green, bros' (;

Music of the Day : Don't Trust Me by 3OH!3

Another magnificent performance by Adam Lambert.

Seriously?
Can he get any better?

One week he shows his punk and rock side,
next, he gets all ballad and emotional.

Omolah !
This guy is awesome !!!

And Paula Abdul is just ... weird.
What's with the "Woman can shop at a men's department, but guys do not shop at a woman's department."

Errr....
Everytime she opens her mouth,
I just get lost.

And Simon is just cool.
Everytime he teases Paula bout her comments.

Anyway, if I were in America,
my credit would finish thanks to Adam Lambert and Kris Allen !!

Blind Leading The Blind (BLB)

Can you believe that I woke up at 6.30am on a Sunday morning.
Omolah !

Anyway, today was blind leading the blind and I was actually dreading to go.
Helloo !
3km walk, bro.

But it turned out to be quite fun.
And hot. Very hot !!

Sooo, my partner was Des.
The lame lame Des.
And she was the one being blindfolded.

But, Des, you can trust me right?

I'm telling you, this girl can cam whore anywhere.
Even when she's blindfolded.

Even Xing came.
You actually managed to wake up and arrive in time.
I'm soo proud. LOL !

So sorry Wai Phun dumped you.
And then you kena stuck with Woon Zhien.
Lemme show you your contrast with him.

And Calvin showed up too.
Earlier than me. Lol !
I see a very committed Leo.

Stop showing off your phone !

And then there's Jun Yew.
My fellow LJY.

Whoo ~
Look at that sexy pose.
Hahahah !

And Rachel (:
My athelete idol. Lol!

And Andrea showed up late again.
As expected.

There's Fook Lee, another cam whore (:
But he's not a pro cam whore.
Not ready for the camera 24/7.

And then there's blackie woon.
Bloody dog.
Piss people off. Lol !

I had to take this pic twice,
cause the first time,
Woon Zhien could not be seen.
Like serious punye !

My fellow retards who loves the camera oh-so-much.

And I got reunited with my best friend since Std.1,
Ng Sue Jean !!

I remember, she was the ONLY one that'll talk to me when I was crying.

Check out the number of Leo's from Taman SEA that attended BLB.
And that's only half of it.

After BLB, we went for lunch in A&W.
And we had our taiko (the black dude) to lead the pack.

Stupid tailo, made us take the LONG route.
Like I said;
Tailo = Molou = KaoChai = Woon Zhien

And then there's my fellow dirt whore,
Wai Phun.

Who finally looks abit like a man,
with that patch over there.
LOL.

And Xing.
My fellow lame partner who spread his deadly lameness disease to me.

Fook Lee again.
Is that your taiko face ?
LOL !

Why am I posting this?
Omola.
Woon's black face !!
And Des's white face !!

CONTRAST !

I always thought I was quite tall.
Until I saw THIS !

Last but not least,
my fellow gang member.

There's the Dirt Gang;

And there's the SO Gang;
(No, it doesn't say so gang. Its short for Secret Organisation. But Jia is missing. So, its like an incomplete gang.)

I would be lying if I said I'm fine. And thats why I won't. Cause I don't want to be a hypocrite. Wouldn't it hurt more if I told you I'm fine, but I was just lying? Everyone just don't understand. Not everything can be based on what you see from the outside. There are reasons behind the things I do. I'm not upset because of the physical state of it, it's the meaning behind those scars. Everyone keeps telling me that what I'm doing is wrong. But how am I suppose to control these feelings? Do you really think its that easy? I know I'm a bitch, but I'm trying to solve this the best way possible too. You really think I don't want to forget it? I don't want what we have to end. But how am I suppose to trust you again after this?

I'm sorry for ignoring you. For giving you the cold eyes. For not acknowledging your apology. And its not only you that I need to forgive. How can I forgive you when I can't forgive myself. Its not entirely your fault. It was mine to begin with. If it weren't for me, you wouldn't have done what you did. If it weren't for me, our friendship wouldn't be like this. The blame is on me.

You always call me a bloody bitch. And you're probably right. Cause I've done so many things. So many wrong things. Towards you, and towards everyone else. Sometimes I wonder if I'm worthy to be your friend. Or even a friend to anyone else. You're probably thinking why am I making such a big fuss out of something so small. Once again, its not all about this. There are other things bothering me now. Things that are affecting my judgement.

Inner Athlete !

This weekend is very productive.
Exercising wise.

Lets see ...
On Friday (counted as a weekend) - Badminton
Saturday - Cycling
Sunday - Walking

Wow !!
Who knew I was so athletic.
HAhahaha !!

Anyway, I'm soo happy to be cycling again.
Though it takes soo much energy cause my housing area is either uphill or downhill.
No straight hill.

Hahahah !

And riding uphill uses so much energy.
Riding downhill is just too freaky.

Anyway, I was just telling Shiva about my cycling dreams.
1. cycling in a beautiful green field. Like those you see in movies.
2. cycling with my friends.
3. cycling beside the guy I like.

Hmm. Wonder if any of it will come true.
LOL !

I Just Cant Think Of The Title.

Went for badminton again this week.
I'm seriously working out, people (;

Anyway, my hands are shaking now.
Weak hands. Yupe.

And Calvin Yap Jun Hong,
stop showing off.

Shiat Hui is wayy better.
LOL!

He's gonna kill me if he reads this.
But the chances of that, is
0.2%

I'd take my chances :D

Today was also our inter-class BM drama.

Our plot?
Business man wants to throw 'sisa toksik'.
Kaki-lang throws it near the playground.
Business man's daughter play play and 'terkena'.
Daughter goes into comma.
Business man regrets and become pencinta alam !

The End.

Sounds sooo cheesy and boring.
But it was really really good.
Cause we used that 'imbas kembali' technique.

Hopefully we stand a chance of winning.

Blessing in disguise. I would love to believe that’s true, but I guess it really isn’t. I feel like I’m loosing everything I’ve ever had. I feel so useless. So weak. I can’t even protect the things that means a lot to me. Everything I ever loved, is damaged. The pain will last forever. And the fault belongs to me. Every night I ask myself; why did I allow myself to make such a mistake? Why couldn’t I be more responsible? Why, why, why. Questions after questions and never any answers. People say not to worry, look on the bright side. But how am I suppose to look for it if it doesn’t exists? How is there possibly any bright side in this situation? Things are just getting worse and its probably just the beginning of it. I do not expect much. Just a strong heart to overcome this.

I'm A Sinner.

But then again, who isn't?
I'm just a bigger one.

Anyway, today, we went out for lunch in McD.
Take my advice and never go to McD during lunch hours on Friday.
Its jam packed !!

So anyway, after that, we rushed back,
and made it in time for Manda's act (;

She was pretty good.
Acting all stressed out and frustrated, like she always is.
So, I guess it wasn't really acting.
LOL !

My bloody neighborhood is sooo noisy.
Or as TzeYi would say, my kawasan perumahan berdarah.

They're always having construction.

Construction.
Construction.
Construction.
Construction.
Construction.

Its seriously killing me.

A few months back, the house in front of me was going under renovation.
Then the house opposite it.
And now, the house behind mine.

Like HELLOO !!
Ever heard of noise pollution.
Mann !!

Our houses here don't look that horrible okay.
Save those renovation money for better use please.

I guess I just wanted to be a part of it. To not loose touch. But its hard. And when you pushed me away today, it felt as if a big sign of you-don't-belong-here-anymore hit me hard on the face. I could feel tears sting my eyes, but I did not let my guard down. Because I don't want you to sympathize me. I thought this feeling went away already. But who knew, it was just trapped inside.

Drama. Drama. Drama !

They're actually pretty good.

Compared to us, idiots who act in inter-class competitions.
LOL !

Anyway, Catholic High School won.
As expected.

Helloo !!
They have all the money in the world to buy those fantastic costumes okay.

I don't know what's they're title but I do know that its about the
SEVEN DEADLY SINS.
1. Lust
2. Gluttony
3. Greed
4. Sloth
5. Wrath
6. Envy
7. Pride

So yeah, the storyline was pretty good.
And not to mention their awesome COSTUMES !!

Soo gotta post up pictures when Zaharim loads them on Facebook.

Our home team was pretty good too.
Their story was so sad.

And they used my name !!
First June Tan, then dunno what Jan (which is Neil).
LOL !!

And DJ performed well too.
Their story is about some love relationship between Jason and -couldn't catch the girl's name-.

It was pretty typical,
like the part;

Jason : Hi I'm ...
Girl : *drops her files*
* Jason and Girl bends down to pick it up together. And eye contact !*
Jason : Jason.

Hahaha!!
That was like, awww~
but hey, who ever gets sick of love stories?

Adam Lambert !

I love that man !

He's totally awesome.
Not to mention, GAY !!

Soo freaking COOL !!

And his vocals are ... incredible !!



Adam Lambert, singing Mad World by Tears for Fears.

Freaking awesome !!
Even dear Simon, stood up for him.

Too bad Kris Allen wasn't doing so well this week.
Come on, Kris.

Get back your sexy vibes !!

Angus, Thongs and perfect Snogging.

I just borrowed that movie from my cousin and watched it yesterday.

And I have rekindled my dream of marrying an 'angmoh' from London with no beard, mustache, or chest hair.

If you do watch the movie, there's this super hot guy, Aaron Johnson.

Isn't he like, super duper HAWT ?!?

I'd give you the answer myself,

YESS SS !!

The movie is really really nice, cause they have that strong London accent which I love ever soo much.

And there's so many hawt guys.

Which I also love soo much (;

Here's a trailer.

Undiscovered Talent? LOL

Lui Jan Yi is quite a sports star after all.
LOL !

Today, after lunch, I told my mom that my kawan actually ajak me go play badminton.
So she asked me why I never go.
Obviously I told her, cause she doesn't wanna fetch me.
Then she say, you wanna go then I fetch you there now.
So, I was like, owh, okay la !!
Cause I thought Daey, Xing all will be there.

Mana tau I reached there, and only JunYew, Aaron, FookLee etc were there.

So, I just changed, since I was already there, might as well work out abit.
Then, they already had they're partners all.
So, can't just 'chap sou' like that right.
So rude right?

Sooo, I just sat there, and watched them smash !!

Double OmGeee.

They play as if they're training for the All Englands Open or wtv.
They smash with ANGER !!

After being wow-ed off by them,
I saw Sheung Jien, Chris and Jia came in.
Not long after, Des and Swen came.
But they didn't stay long.

But anyway, I arrived there without a racket,
how to play la ?!?

Thank God Melvin has an extra.
Thanks, Melvin (;

Sooo, I started playing with Jia Tern they all,
and I'm actually pretty good.

Maybe Jia is just bad.
Hahahah !!

Just kidding la.
I still have lots to learn.

I even had some intensive training with Aaron on how to serve, and how to pick up the shuttle from the floor using a racket, with style :D

He seems kinda frustrated while teaching me.
Maybe cause I'm such a sloww learner.
Sorry Aaron !!

So yeah,
I had like intensive workout.

And probably, my skin would be better now,
since the toxic all kena perspired out right?

Hahahah !!

Thanks JiaTern, SheungJien and Chris for playing with me.
Tolerating with my horrible smash-attempt.
LOL !

A Little Reading For The Future.

See this ?

This, my friends,

is a reading,

from the FUTURE !

A few days back, we were playing this game.

I'm sure all of you know what that game is.

Sooo, we waxed Vino's hair,

(you know well that his arm is filled with hairy substance that we call ARM HAIR)

to get a more accurate reading.

And this, is the result.

As you can see, Vino's hair is at the top left.

And of course, every diagram must have a title(on the top right).

The candidates of the 'tilikan' is;

No. of children;

i) 3

ii) 50

iii) 146

Car;

i) Lamborghini

ii) Kancil

iii) Go-kart

House;

i) Toilet

ii) Mansion

iii) Road side

Soulmate;

i) Syafiq

ii) Pn Vijaya

iii) Shaina

Occupation;

i) Pilot

ii) Stripper

iii) House Husband

Poor / Normal / Rich

And the results are;

No. of children - 3

Car - Kancil

House - Toilet

Soulmate - Syafiq

Occupation - House Husband

Looks like Vino future isn't soo bright.

Hahahah !!

And as you can see, this 'tilikan' is definitely 'sah' because the P.B.T. aka Pengawai Bertaraf Tinggi aka Xing, signed it.

And the P.B.L.T.D.P.B.T. aka Pengawai Bertaraf Lebih Tinggi Daripada Pengawai Bertaraf Tinggi aka Lui Jan Yi, also signed it.

We even have a 'saksi' which wrote seksi instead.

aka Shamand.

So yeah, I'm sorry Vino.

Your love life and future,

flushed down the toilet,

where you live,

according to your 'tilikan'.

Hahahah !!

Please take note that, this is all for fun only and does not represent anything.

Do not take it seriously.

REPEAT : DO NOT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY.

I'm signing off now with a song from Adam Lambert - Play That Funky Music.

He's super super good. Sooo cool !!

" Play that funky music, white boy ! "