You know, its funny when you read back your old posts and wonder how did you manage to come up with words and sentences like that? It like a different person is managing your words for you. Well, this is what happens when trouble takes over your minds.

Sometimes the memories of our history flashes through my mind and I wonder over and over again if I made a mistake letting go. But then again, too late to change anything now. Of course I appreciate every moment we spent together. Whether we were laughing, secretly liking, scolding, arguing, lying or whatever crap we were doing. But now it's time to let go. Our memories together will stick close to me while you build your new memories. Truthfully, I'm happy for you (:

Trying is such a simple word, but it holds so much more than just 6 alphabets. We try everyday in life. Whether we're trying to fit in, trying to be funny, trying to laugh or whatever. We all do this for one reason, to be noticed. Who doesn't wanna be the popular one? Who doesn't wanna e loved? But sometimes, things just doesn't go your way. Just because you tried, doesn't mean you'd succeed. 'Cause hey, everyone is trying just as hard as you. Sometimes, I just feel so tired of trying. No wait! Scratch that. I feel tired of failing whenever I try to do something. When I try to laugh along just so i don't get left out, when I try to keep talking just so there wont be an awkward moment, when I try to be funny just so people will laugh with me not at me. Sometimes, you just gotta know when to stop trying. But one things for sure, I'm not going to stop trying now. Even if it means embarrassing myself, or crying in the showers every night, I'd try hard to find who I am. To stop sailing without a compass. To find myself.

And when I do find myself, I'd finally be able to laugh out loud from my heart and not from my mind. I'd be able to stand up tall and be proud of myself. For now, I just need a lil' bit of support from the people around me. I believe that support is where we get our faith and hope for us to keep trying though we failed numerous times.

If I can keep trying, why can't you?