Blessing in disguise. I would love to believe that’s true, but I guess it really isn’t. I feel like I’m loosing everything I’ve ever had. I feel so useless. So weak. I can’t even protect the things that means a lot to me. Everything I ever loved, is damaged. The pain will last forever. And the fault belongs to me. Every night I ask myself; why did I allow myself to make such a mistake? Why couldn’t I be more responsible? Why, why, why. Questions after questions and never any answers. People say not to worry, look on the bright side. But how am I suppose to look for it if it doesn’t exists? How is there possibly any bright side in this situation? Things are just getting worse and its probably just the beginning of it. I do not expect much. Just a strong heart to overcome this.

I'm A Sinner.

But then again, who isn't?
I'm just a bigger one.

Anyway, today, we went out for lunch in McD.
Take my advice and never go to McD during lunch hours on Friday.
Its jam packed !!

So anyway, after that, we rushed back,
and made it in time for Manda's act (;

She was pretty good.
Acting all stressed out and frustrated, like she always is.
So, I guess it wasn't really acting.
LOL !

My bloody neighborhood is sooo noisy.
Or as TzeYi would say, my kawasan perumahan berdarah.

They're always having construction.

Construction.
Construction.
Construction.
Construction.
Construction.

Its seriously killing me.

A few months back, the house in front of me was going under renovation.
Then the house opposite it.
And now, the house behind mine.

Like HELLOO !!
Ever heard of noise pollution.
Mann !!

Our houses here don't look that horrible okay.
Save those renovation money for better use please.

I guess I just wanted to be a part of it. To not loose touch. But its hard. And when you pushed me away today, it felt as if a big sign of you-don't-belong-here-anymore hit me hard on the face. I could feel tears sting my eyes, but I did not let my guard down. Because I don't want you to sympathize me. I thought this feeling went away already. But who knew, it was just trapped inside.

Drama. Drama. Drama !

They're actually pretty good.

Compared to us, idiots who act in inter-class competitions.
LOL !

Anyway, Catholic High School won.
As expected.

Helloo !!
They have all the money in the world to buy those fantastic costumes okay.

I don't know what's they're title but I do know that its about the
SEVEN DEADLY SINS.
1. Lust
2. Gluttony
3. Greed
4. Sloth
5. Wrath
6. Envy
7. Pride

So yeah, the storyline was pretty good.
And not to mention their awesome COSTUMES !!

Soo gotta post up pictures when Zaharim loads them on Facebook.

Our home team was pretty good too.
Their story was so sad.

And they used my name !!
First June Tan, then dunno what Jan (which is Neil).
LOL !!

And DJ performed well too.
Their story is about some love relationship between Jason and -couldn't catch the girl's name-.

It was pretty typical,
like the part;

Jason : Hi I'm ...
Girl : *drops her files*
* Jason and Girl bends down to pick it up together. And eye contact !*
Jason : Jason.

Hahaha!!
That was like, awww~
but hey, who ever gets sick of love stories?

Adam Lambert !

I love that man !

He's totally awesome.
Not to mention, GAY !!

Soo freaking COOL !!

And his vocals are ... incredible !!



Adam Lambert, singing Mad World by Tears for Fears.

Freaking awesome !!
Even dear Simon, stood up for him.

Too bad Kris Allen wasn't doing so well this week.
Come on, Kris.

Get back your sexy vibes !!

Angus, Thongs and perfect Snogging.

I just borrowed that movie from my cousin and watched it yesterday.

And I have rekindled my dream of marrying an 'angmoh' from London with no beard, mustache, or chest hair.

If you do watch the movie, there's this super hot guy, Aaron Johnson.

Isn't he like, super duper HAWT ?!?

I'd give you the answer myself,

YESS SS !!

The movie is really really nice, cause they have that strong London accent which I love ever soo much.

And there's so many hawt guys.

Which I also love soo much (;

Here's a trailer.

Undiscovered Talent? LOL

Lui Jan Yi is quite a sports star after all.
LOL !

Today, after lunch, I told my mom that my kawan actually ajak me go play badminton.
So she asked me why I never go.
Obviously I told her, cause she doesn't wanna fetch me.
Then she say, you wanna go then I fetch you there now.
So, I was like, owh, okay la !!
Cause I thought Daey, Xing all will be there.

Mana tau I reached there, and only JunYew, Aaron, FookLee etc were there.

So, I just changed, since I was already there, might as well work out abit.
Then, they already had they're partners all.
So, can't just 'chap sou' like that right.
So rude right?

Sooo, I just sat there, and watched them smash !!

Double OmGeee.

They play as if they're training for the All Englands Open or wtv.
They smash with ANGER !!

After being wow-ed off by them,
I saw Sheung Jien, Chris and Jia came in.
Not long after, Des and Swen came.
But they didn't stay long.

But anyway, I arrived there without a racket,
how to play la ?!?

Thank God Melvin has an extra.
Thanks, Melvin (;

Sooo, I started playing with Jia Tern they all,
and I'm actually pretty good.

Maybe Jia is just bad.
Hahahah !!

Just kidding la.
I still have lots to learn.

I even had some intensive training with Aaron on how to serve, and how to pick up the shuttle from the floor using a racket, with style :D

He seems kinda frustrated while teaching me.
Maybe cause I'm such a sloww learner.
Sorry Aaron !!

So yeah,
I had like intensive workout.

And probably, my skin would be better now,
since the toxic all kena perspired out right?

Hahahah !!

Thanks JiaTern, SheungJien and Chris for playing with me.
Tolerating with my horrible smash-attempt.
LOL !

A Little Reading For The Future.

See this ?

This, my friends,

is a reading,

from the FUTURE !

A few days back, we were playing this game.

I'm sure all of you know what that game is.

Sooo, we waxed Vino's hair,

(you know well that his arm is filled with hairy substance that we call ARM HAIR)

to get a more accurate reading.

And this, is the result.

As you can see, Vino's hair is at the top left.

And of course, every diagram must have a title(on the top right).

The candidates of the 'tilikan' is;

No. of children;

i) 3

ii) 50

iii) 146

Car;

i) Lamborghini

ii) Kancil

iii) Go-kart

House;

i) Toilet

ii) Mansion

iii) Road side

Soulmate;

i) Syafiq

ii) Pn Vijaya

iii) Shaina

Occupation;

i) Pilot

ii) Stripper

iii) House Husband

Poor / Normal / Rich

And the results are;

No. of children - 3

Car - Kancil

House - Toilet

Soulmate - Syafiq

Occupation - House Husband

Looks like Vino future isn't soo bright.

Hahahah !!

And as you can see, this 'tilikan' is definitely 'sah' because the P.B.T. aka Pengawai Bertaraf Tinggi aka Xing, signed it.

And the P.B.L.T.D.P.B.T. aka Pengawai Bertaraf Lebih Tinggi Daripada Pengawai Bertaraf Tinggi aka Lui Jan Yi, also signed it.

We even have a 'saksi' which wrote seksi instead.

aka Shamand.

So yeah, I'm sorry Vino.

Your love life and future,

flushed down the toilet,

where you live,

according to your 'tilikan'.

Hahahah !!

Please take note that, this is all for fun only and does not represent anything.

Do not take it seriously.

REPEAT : DO NOT TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY.

I'm signing off now with a song from Adam Lambert - Play That Funky Music.

He's super super good. Sooo cool !!

" Play that funky music, white boy ! "